It’s safe to assume nobody wants to be dredging up the past, but recovering from addiction requires you as an alcoholic and/or addict to take a serious look at your past when embarking on your journey in sobriety. When working on the 4th step inventory in particular, it can be overbearing when you are overridden with memories you haven’t recalled for some time. Mentally revisiting these occasions can be enervating, so it’s crucial to remember that it’s all part of the process. Looking back at your life isn’t supposed to be torturous but rather get you in a better frame of mind so that you can live at peace with yourself in a restored sanity.
About The 4th Step Inventory
Each person’s walk during the recovery process is their own because everybody reacts differently. It may take you quicker or longer than another alcoholic and/or addict when it comes to reaching and completing the 4th step inventory. However, it shouldn’t matter; you shouldn’t be comparing! When an individual hits their 4th step inventory, a thorough searching and fearless moral inventory is conducted. The 4th step involves a great deal of work where you end up taking a good, hard, honest look at your resentments in a new light, the causes and the conditions that explain why you have them, and above all else, the truth behind the role you played in them. Fears and relationships are also addressed in your inventory. Decision making is taken a look at while your past is viewed right before your eyes. Do your best not to live in what you cannot change.
The Power Of Resentments
You may not have realized it when you were actively picking up the bottle and/or headed to grab the drugs, but living with resentments brought you right to your substance. Being able to see the people you resent as “sick” and seeing the part you play can help you come out of it. The frustrating part for you may be when you have to put the pen on paper, becoming willing to do the work, and experiencing whatever feelings may arise as a result. Now that your substances are no longer numbing you, feelings are bound to come and you are going to experience them. Having feelings is nothing to be ashamed of. It is completely normal to have feelings because it’s part of the human experience to display and process emotions.
This Too Shall Pass
You may conjure up memories you haven’t considered in a while since the 4th step inventory work is known for dredging up the past and it may be painful but rest assured pain is temporary. Keep in mind, “This too shall pass.” Recovery is a process and it may seem like it’s tough to deal with now that you don’t have the aid of alcohol and/or drugs to lean on for support. However, now you have healthier coping mechanisms in recovery by working your program and reaching out to actual people who have experience with the same disease as you for support. This ultimately can help to develop an understanding of how you should be living, which is trusting that better things are well on their way as long as you continue to follow through doing the next right thing.
Are you still feeling stuck in the midst of active addiction to alcohol and/or drugs? Contact The Watershed and begin the process of your recovery today. Call now at 877-975-4837.